Trip

I'm off to Austin for a conference this afternoon. I haven't even started packing. Actually, I don't even have enough clean clothes to start packing.

This next week will be such a flurry, I can't sleep just thinking about it - just too many different things going on. I come back from Austin late Tuesday night, then things will be hectic at work the rest of the week. We are doing Sophia's tissue expansions at home (because her surgeon is so far away) every Thursday night, and this has become something I dread, because it causes her so much stress. Saturday is Sophia's third birthday - wow! - and I have a party to plan. Then Sunday I am helping welcome my friend's newly adopted son into our church and having them over for lunch afterwards. Sunday night I am meeting with the executive committee of my board, and our next board meeting is next Monday. I have to tell you, I am NOT looking forward to this, because there has just been a lot of tension with this board lately, and the survival of our organization depends on me pulling everyone together immediately.

Right now I feel like so many things are buzzing around in my head, that I'm not very useful for actually dealing with any of them. And the end result of feeling like this, is that I am off-center. While I was at the dentist last week, in a nitrous oxide fog, a prayer came into my mind (I usually pray at the dentist, but it's usually something along the lines of "Oh God please please make this terror stop!")

Lord, please, whatever silly things distract me, focus me.

This will be my prayer this week. I need to keep focused on the things that are important, and it's so easy during weeks like this to forget what those things even are. It's easy to be a crappy mom because I'm worried about work, or to be a crappy attorney because I'm worried about what's going on with this board of directors, or to be a crappy wife because I'm worried about Sophia, or to be a crappy Christian because I take God for granted and put Him on the back burner (when I need Him the most!)

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33