He decided this week that he wants me, the whole me, and nothing but the me.
Seriously, when he's awake, he wants me to hold him. If I put him down, or anyone else holds him, he screams. Horrible screams like someone is sticking pins in his eyeballs. Then I'll go pick him up thinking he's hungry or hurting or something - but the second I pick him up, he either nestles into me and falls asleep, or he instantly stops crying and looks at me with these googly eyes like I'm the best thing in the world. I'm trying not to let it get to my head too much.
But it's nice to be needed. The thing is - and I'm totally stealing a line from one of my favorite bloggers - I need him as much as he needs me. The past two years, I have wanted nothing more than to hold a tiny, snuggly baby of my own. When I'm not holding him, I kind of scream on the inside. And when I hold him, I get all relaxed and googly eyed too.
We're so happy to have each other!
But... tomorrow is my last day of maternity leave, and about every hour this whole week, I've been crying about it. I'm lucky that I get to work from home most of the time from now until the end of May - I will just have to go into the office for about ten or so hours a week to attend meetings and such. But still, during the day my primary focus will have to be work. So my days of just lying in bed staring googly eyed at Henry are over.
4 comments:
He is such a precious boy. I can understand why you are both googly eyed! :) Sorry you have to go back to work tomorrow...but, I'm sure you'll still get to spend lots of time with him when you work from home.
Your boy Henry is simply adorable. I agree with you that the need exists on both sides. It's wonderful isn't it?
I hope your transition back to work isn't too difficult - it's good that you have some flexibility which will hopefully make it a bit easier.
There are few things better than a mommy with her arms full...and her heart even fuller. I'm so glad that your sweet Henry is filling both. Rejoicing with you...
And praying for you as you return to work...
He is just precious! I totally know the feeling...I have dreamed all my life of having a baby of my own and now that I do, it's hard for me to let others hold her! :) My arms ache when I'm not holding her.
I am so sorry you had to go back to work. I will be praying for you...I know that's got to be so hard.
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