I am pregnant!!!!! Happy, happy, HAPPY news!
I'm pretty sure that's the cutest 9 week old baby I've ever seen (giant head facing down, little flipper arms and legs sticking out).
9 weeks. Our Violet was 9 weeks old when she died, and I walked around for 2 weeks with absolutely no idea that anything was wrong. Do you know what that's doing to my mind right now? I LOVE my doctor, and he ordered an ultrasound last week (the one you see above) in addition to the one we had two weeks prior (when we first saw a fluttering heart beat). I will have another, more in-depth ultrasound in two weeks. I am sick - sicker than I have EVER been during pregnancy. Twenty-four hours a day sick. Throwing up sick. Wanting to stay in bed day and night sick. And I am so, so thankful for that. Because it is reassuring. The ultrasounds are reassuring. And yet, still, I am terrified right now.
I this is my eighth pregnancy, and three of those babies are alive today and four are not. Even though I know it's not the case, my brain keeps trying to tell me that the odds are not in my favor. My brain, my brain is not my friend right now. It is cruel and negative and freaked out and just generally not helpful. And my heart, my heart is exploding with complete LOVE for a new baby and such sadness for the one who should be 30 weeks now. And then, the hormones...
I am pretty sure that between now and at least when I pass that 11 week mark when we found out Violet had died, I will be a wreck (and then comes her due date). I am traveling a lot this month and I am physically a wreck for sure and worried about how I will handle the trips. I'm weary from feeling so... many feelings.
BUT I am reminding myself daily to REJOICE. I am re-reading my words from this post, because they are still true. I never regret falling in love. All we are ever given is today. And today, all is well with baby. Today I am miserably, blissfully sick.
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You are absolutely right, all we are given is today and today that baby is alive and well. Congrats to you and your hub that is wonderful news. I am so sorry you are so sick.
I am praying for you, the girls, Henry, the hubs and little baby!
OH Congrats! Sending many prayers...but I'm so glad that you're sooo sick (they always told me that LOTS of hormones causing morning (24/7)sickness is a good sign!!)
Beautiful sonogram pic :)
CONGRATULATIONS and many, many blessings...we'll be praying for you and your new baby!
Congratulations! I am thinking about you and will say a prayer for this little blessing. Hang in there.
Congratulations Vera!! With how sick you are, I bet that is a very good sign. I was that way with my kids. It is not fun, but it is reassuring that your body is loaded with all the right hormones. I will pray that your little one stays right where he/she is supposed to stay for the full 9 months.
HAPPY DAY! I am so glad to see that you are pregnant! Congratulations Vera!
Now I will be praying for you and for the fears to subside. (I know it is so easy to fear...but we must give those fears to Him sweetie. I will be praying!!!!)
Love, Linda @ Truthful Tidbits
Wow! Congrats! I hope & pray everything turns out okay. Sorry you are so sick...but a little price to pay, huh?
PLEASE keep us informed! We will be wondering what's going on and praying along with you!
I am so very happy for you! More than anything, I want you to take care of yourself right now. No one can substitute for your Mom, so think of me as an Aunt of sorts. If you need me please let me know. Hugs to you and to all the sweet family. Bonnie
Yay you spilled the poppyseeds! :) I can only imagine what you are feeling. I'm sorry and happy you are sick all at the same time. You know I got nothin' but love for ya :)
Congraulations!!!
HOoray! Blogger is finally working! I'm so thrilled for you and am praying. xo
Herzlichen Glückwunsch :)!!!
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