a bassinet (with freshly washed bedding) and a bag packed for the hospital.
In his dresser, Wyatt's clothes wait, smelling sweetly of Dreft.
24 little newborn cloth diapers are stacked in the changing table. Another car seat sits by the door, waiting to be installed in the newly detailed car. The house is clean, the refrigerator and pantry are stocked and the freezer is full of casseroles. October's bills have been paid, birthday gifts and cards have been sent off, regrets have been conveyed for all meetings and social engagements...
I know I've mentioned it before, so although I'm ashamed of it, it's no secret... I have hated this pregnancy. It has been too scary and filled with one "what if" after another. All I've wanted is to have this sweet baby safe in my arms, pretty much from the moment we found out I was pregnant. And now, very, very soon - I will!
I've been really grouchy the past few days - losing it more than once, being snippy with everyone in my family, and just plain wanting to scream that I am SICK OF BEING PREGNANT!! But... really, when I stop whining for a moment, I remember what a special time this is. With my other babies, these days and weeks before birth were just about my favorite time ever - the anticipation of waiting to meet your baby is unlike anything in the world. And so, we wait. And I am stopping daily - sometimes hourly - to remind myself to cherish these waiting days.
2 comments:
Well, it looks and sounds like you are totally ready and prepared for this little guy. I am excited for you Vera. There is just nothing better than a newborn baby! You will soon hold him in your arms!!!
love, Linda
Yes, it looks like you are all ready to go! I am sure you are ready to be done. After all the worrying, I would be, too. It won't be long now, so just enjoy the last bit and get some rest. Pretty soon you will be holding your little baby. :)
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